She sat in the corner of her room,resting her throbbing head on the side of her bed,staring into the blank walls sorrounding her,with eyes that were now sore,hurting and swollen from a million hours of endless crying that she had done so far. She sat numb to her own heart’s pain,deaf to her own soul’s screeching cries,blind to her own wounds,and dumb to her own mind’s ruins. She sat like a cripple,struggling to hold herself together. She had been with him like an unwanted,rejected accessory. And now she was no longer even as much as worth keeping him amused and interesting enough for him to toy with. He had begun to lose interest in her and quite clearly,she saw that she intrigued him no more..
A pretty little doll she had once been. And she had had no choice but to hear him,see him,feel for him. He treated her like she was his princess,and on the inside he just kept tearing her apart and pulling her down,bit by bit,part by part. he hurt her in ways noone could have ever guessed. He broke her heart into an infinite little fractions,one by one,slowly,ensuring that she recieved a million years of unbearable pain with each time he knocked her down and broke her. He shattered her dreams,her hopes,her all,and let her fall to her knees and fold her hands infront of him and beg her for mercy. And he laughed at her misery as he poisoned her soul and watched her burn and die a slow death.. A death of pain,fear and insecurity.
And as she bled to death with each passing second,he sat beside her and watched her and kissed and caressed her,and cared for her like she was his own baby. She watched him,horror struck her face,pain filled her eyes and ran in rivers of tears,and she nothing but hated him with a heart that was filled with nothing but immense trust and unconditional love for him. A heart that beat for him.. A heart that had his name inscribed on every inch of its existence. A heart that yearned fot nothing but to be with him and to belong to him someday. She had loved him,trusted him,ached for him,cared for him,sacrificed for him more than her all could have afforded to. She had tied all her hopes,her dreams,her memories to his name. She had waited,and waited endlessly and hopefully and trustingly for him to see.. To see that she had pained,she had prayed.. She had done all she could to make him see her love for him. She had done more than all the world could to try and be worth being his respect. She had wanted a place of authority in his life,but he had only always looked right past her.. There wasn’t a soul in that world who couldn’t see her love for him shining in her eyes. but he remained unaware,unconcerned.
He would look past her,past her pain,leave her words unheard,her feelings unnoticed,her wounds unseen. She stared into the blank walls ahead of her and wondered when it would collapse on her,crush her beneath it and swallow her pain and her existence within its remains.. She wanted to turn to dust and vanish into the earth beneath her. Eternity for her lay in the elements of the world sorrounding her. Hence,she was taken in by the soil,swept away by the wind,and granted her last request. Liberated she was now,as her soul became the air he breathed….
